a mass of contradictions

"You appear to be a mass of contradictions; there’s a subsurface violence almost always in control, but very much alive. There’s also a pensiveness that seems painful for you, yet you rarely give vent to the anger that pain must provoke."

from The Bourne Identity by Robert Ludlum


On the observer separed from the events

"He could feel, think, see, perceive panic and struggle—yet strangely there was peace. It was the calm of the observer, the uninvolved observer, separated from the events, knowing of them but not essentially involved."

from The Bourne Identity by Robert Ludlum


Everything starts with a dream...

Everything Starts with a Dream Notebook Diary

Dreams and Stories come hand in hand with me. As long with notebooks and notepads to record them.
I'm an only child. So I've always played by myself, with my toys.
I've never been a loud child. When I played the dialogues of my toys and plots where all in my head.

Back in the day I know I use to dream. But I don't remember none of dreams. In exceptions for a very weird dream I use to have.
I would dream I was in some place like a restaurant, and it was pretty much empty. I was with one of my cousins (the only one who as the same age as me) and I know Captain Hook was coming to get us. (What?) We run to hide, and the only place we have to hide is an low cupboard all in transparent glass. The cupboard had some thick bordeaux/burgundy velvet curtains to hide what was inside. Inside of the cupboard where these HUGE ceramic plates, where we could sit over. And then after carefully sitting in the plate I would wake. Now if I tell you that one of my favourite movies is Hook (played by Dustin Hoffman and with Robbie Williams as Peter Pan)? And that one of my favourites characters was actually the Captain Hook? Or that the first theatre play I ever saw was Peter Pan? This dream never made sense to me. And probably it's not even suppose to. But I never forgot about it.

Dream Always and Forever Quote Notebook

In the hot summer of 2005, I was in my grandparents house spending a few days. I think it was the first time I was aware of daydreaming. And not the sort of daydreaming with something I wanted to do. Daydreaming with made up stories completely made up by my own head. It was AWESOME!
Gradually I've started to keep doing it.
I would tell myself stories to sleep, I would entertain myself when I needed to go somewhere, when I was in the car for long travels... Usually this sort of daydreaming leads me to actually sleep. Even if it is just for a nap.
I've also started to keep record of my favourite ideas of stories. I've still have most of these, though I know that most of them will never be anything more than some scribbles made by and dreamy teenager.

The jar of Dreams Notebook

From 2005 to 2008/2009 I've woke up many times in the morning with such awesome dreams that I would turn into stories. Into a point that if I didn't record the dream as it was, I din't know where the dream stop and my imagination begin. I have a couple of notebooks full with dreams and the main plot of stories that I've started to imagine. Most of them I look on them and I still love them.
Some of these stories (a tiny part) I shared with some and very few selected friends.
Maybe it's because I've dream it, I feel that these stories are very personal. It might also be because most of times I see myself of one of the main characters. Though 99% of the times the characters have nothing to do with me.

What inspired me to have such dreams? Well it could be anything, a movie I had seen, a book I've read. Most of the times I couldn't pin point what was my inspiration. But then I would stay inspired to write and spend time with these characters.

Unfortunately from 2009 until this day this sort of dreams have been decreasing, most of the times I don't even write them. I still create stories in my mind, I still tell them to myself to entertain me or to make me sleep. But I don't have as much dreams with great ideas as I use to have.

I've been thinking about the fact that I didn't write as much as I use to. I miss it.
It's definitely something I need to schedule in my time and to-do-list - Take time to daydream and write!

What about you, what sort of dreams you use to have?

Dreams Diary Notebook


currently reading or about to read

Things on my desk that I'm currently reading or about to read.

1. The Tale of Squirrel Nutkin by Beatrix Potter
Recently I've been collecting things with squirrels. When I found about this book I had to have to. Beatrix Potter illustration are beautiful, and just that makes worth the buy of the book.

2. A Midsummer Night's Dream & 3. Much Ado About Nothing
My favourite plays written by William Shakespeare. I haven't read them in English yet. I know it won't be easy to read but I'm looking forward to it.

4. Print Workshop by Christine Schmidt (Yellow Owl Workshop) & 5. Printing by Hand by Lena Corwin
I've been researching for some workshops I'll be giving this month about block printing and these two books were part of that research.

6. Monocle issue 76, volume 08 September 2014
It's been almost two years that I've been buying and reading this magazine monthly. This is the current issue that I'm reading.


I can walk for miles and miles

I was reading How to Master The Shoes Selfie when I remember to talk about my new sandals.
I know I know the Summer is almost over. But I've been on the hunt for some sandals for a long while.
I knew what I wanted but I was having troubles in finding specially in a price range I could afford.

I've been fan of the Fly London shoes for a few years. (If I could I would have all of my shoes by that brand). Their shoes can have funky colours, wierd shapes and when you walk (in the ones I've tried) it looks like you're flying! I know it's cheesy, and I promise this is not even sponsored, it's how nice this shoes and sandals are to my feet.

This might be a bit TMI but my feet are very flat, so I always need to have some sort of support under the feet so I can stand walk and put my feet on the ground for even short periods of time.

Fly London thought have many of their shoes been produced in Portugal, it's not a very affordable brand, but sometimes the craftsmen and the sole quality make it worth the price.

I have a platform shoes from the brand in black that I love. Unfortunately I can't say that I use them a lot. In the past couple years if I used them once it was too much. Because they weren't the cheapest thing I tend to think that they are my fancy shoes, while I should think that they should be more like my regular shoes. But I'm running away from the subject.

Fly London Woman's Bow Gladiator Sandals

I was browsing in Amazon.uk and these sandals were on sale for a very good price. For a bit I was sorry it wasn't the teal version the one with the best price, but then I remembered that one of my favourite sandals ever where actually in brown, and that I've wear them to death. Besides I have a lot of bags in brown. And Brown it's almost a neutral colour and goes with most of the colours.

I was concern about the sizing, because I had to buy them in UK size, and I didn't know if they were a true size. It turn out they are true size (like I was hoping them to be). The first day I wear them I might have walked a little to much. I had a blister in each feet, but I've walked so well, that I was too much wowed to even bother about the blisters. The second time I used them they didn't bother me at all.

It was such a bargain, the perfect model of sandals (in my opinion) from one of my favourite brands, with such rich and beautiful colour (it's way prettier in life than in the website) and that make me feel I can walk for miles!

Photo took with my phone.

*this post it's not sponsored, just my true opinion and feelings about my new sandals!


The Beard man said - Quote from Horns

"What he remembered was everything dark and roaring noise and a whirling sense of motion. He was poured forth into a thunderous torrent of souls, ejected from the earth and any sense of order and into this other, older chaos. He was in horror of it, appalled by the thought that this might be what waited after death. He felt he was being swept away, not just from his life but from God, the idea of God, or hope, or reason, the idea that things made sense, that cause followed effect, and it ought not to be like this, Ig felt, death ought not to be like this, even for sinners.
He struggled in that furious current of noise and nothing. The blackness seemed to shatter and peel away to show a muddy glimpse of sky but then closed back over him. When he felt himself weakening and sinking away, he had the sense of being grabbed and tugged along from beneath. Then, abruptly, there was something more solid under him. It felt like mud. A moment later he heard a far-off cry and was struck in the back."

in Horns by Joe Hill

perfect! Such graphic description that I could almost sense it myself.


Anatomy of a Book - August Wrap Up

In the month of August I've read a lot of things from different styles.
Though I think what I've read most were comics. Let's check that! (Are you ready for a really long post?)


Dresden Files by Jim Butcher

In July I've started to read a new series of books that mix fantasy with detective sort of book. The series are called Dresden Files, and they are about Harry Dresden, wizard.
So far I'm loving it. The books aren't predictable, and they have loads of twists. I hope they keep like this way. And I've been founding out that this one of my favourite combos for books and TV shows - Fantasy + Detective/Police (like the series Grim which reminds I should keep seeing the second season)

In the Dresden Files series there are 15 books so far and are written by Jim Butcher. In August I've read/listen three of them.
Yes, I've been reading these series in the audiobook form, the english is not very hard, and the audio is read by the actor James Marsters (Spike in Buffy the Vampire Slayer TV show) which has this amazing voice. When I've routine work to do, something that doesn't require me to think I like to listening to these books

I've read the 3th Book - Grave Peril, the 4th Summer Knight and the 5th Death Masks.
I've also heard that the series really get good from the 6th book on so, I'm excited to keep reading.

The Lightning Thief by Rick Riordan

I've started to read another series - Percy Jackson and the Olympians by Rick Riordan
I've been for a long time wanting to read this series, because I love mythology and Greek Gods.
I really don't understand why I took me so long.
Easy and quick to read (since it's more of a kids book it makes sense to be easy). The story is quite straight forward.

If the Greek Gods exist? What if the heroes/ demi-gods lived among us?
Those are some of the premises of this series. Percy Jackson is son of Poseidon and with his new friends has to go on quest to recover the lightning stole from Zeus.

I know I will continue to read this series!


I wanted to read something light and quick around the middle of the month so I picked this book.
It's was ok. Definitely not my favourite book from the author, but still a nice romance.

Here's a quick synopsis of the book
"To the residents of Whiskey Beach, it's landmark and legend. To Eli Landon, it's home...

A Boston lawyer, Eli has weathered an intense year of public scrutiny and police investigation after being accused of murdering his soon-to-be ex-wife. And though there was never enough evidence to have him arrested, his reputation is in tatters as well as his soul. He need sanctuary. He needs Bluff House.

While Eli's beloved grandmother is in Boston, recuperating from a nasty fall, Abra Walsh has card for Bluff House, among her other jobs as yoga instructor, jewellery maker, and massage therapist. She is a woman with an open heart and a wide embrace, and no one is safe from her special, some would say over-bearing, brand of nurturing - including Eli."


Along Came a Spider by James Patterson

I've also read Along Came a Spider and wrote a hole post about it!

Now into the Comics

Hercules: The Thracian Wars by Steve Moore

If I hadn't seen  the year of publication I would say (by the covers) that these issues of Hercules The Thracian Wars was quite older. But when you open it, you can see it's something contemporary.

I was drawn to attention of this comic book a few weeks ago, not just because of the coming film but also an interview with (another comic book writer) Alan Moore, where he talked about the film adaptation and other serious issues (if you know all about read it here http://bit.ly/1oQsRjx)

I really like the art of this comic book, it's detailed and you can have a very cinematographic feel of the era, and also of the action. From what I know about Hercules life and Greek Mythology I can tell that everything seems quite accurate and and loyal to what's known.

This is not a comic book for all audiences, it's gloomy, bloody and gory. If what you like is fluffy characters and cute comics, this might be out of your alley.

Wet Moon by Ross Campbell 

Wet Moon, Volume 1: Feeble Wanderings | Wet Moon, Volume 2: Unseen Feet | Wet Moon Volume 3: Further Realms of Fright | Wet Moon Volume 4: Drowned in Evil | Wet Moon Volume 5: Where All Stars Fail to Burn

I know Ross's art for years and years, since I was in deviantart, I've always love it.
At last this month I've read the most of his comics from Wet Moon series (from 1 to 5) There's only one missing.
I find the story line a bit confusing, though when you keep reading you start to understand more about the characters and their relationships. I love the art and the crazy characters, I really can't forget to read the last one.

More art by Ross Campbell

Lumberjanes by Noelle Stevenson

I've also read the first four issues of the Lumberjanes.
First can we talk about the art? It's awesome!
Second - the characters... SUPER fun! with so much character and this is just the beginning of the Lumberjanes Series.
Three - how cool is five girls in the woods fighting three eye foxes? Super cool! I'm super excited to keep reading these series!
American Virgin, Volume 1: Head | American Virgin, Volume 2: Going Down | American Virgin, Volume 3: Wet | American Virgin, Volume 4: Around The World

What drawn me into these comics was the cover of the first issue. I've seen it a few years ago - somewhere - and it stuck in my mind. Recently I've stumble on it again and I was curious enough to actually start reading it. I have to say also that I prefer the cover of the single issues instead of the Volumes, and that I prefer the first ones that the last ones.

In this first volume are reunited the 1-4 issues.
The comic mainly focus on the character Adam Chamberlain, young adult Christian preacher promoting sexual abstinence until marriage. Adam is proud of his virginity and his engagement to his girlfriend Cassie, currently on a peace corps mission in Africa (near the border with Mozambique); he believes she was chosen by God to be his wife.
Adam can't wait for his girlfriend to come back from Africa, but for some reason not explained in the book, Cassie is murdered and beheaded by terrorists.I know the main focus on the book isn't about the situation in Africa, but I wish to understand why Cassie was there, and also the reason of the conflicts.
Adam, against his parents wishes, flee with his stepsister Cyndi to South Africa where he tries to find answers for Cassie's death.
Along that path they met a mercenary named Mel, who claims he can help him to find answers Adam wants and need.

I've really enjoyed reading this comics. Not just the covers are stunning, as the artwork inside. The story keep me going, there's a lot of conflicts between the characters believes and actions. There is a lot of hypocrisy in most of the characters, but to me that only make them feel more real. At the first sight things are presented to you in some way, but as you read along you found out there is more. For example the main character Adam Chamberlain is a virgin who preaches to other young people about sexual abstinence. You might think that people around him would actually think about it in the same way. But that's not so simple. His family, his dysfunction family is completely sex obsessed. From his teen brother, to his bully stepbrothers and his stepsister. His mother and stepfather in the other hand are more worried about Adam's talks in public than his feelings about his girlfriend died. They are more worried about him as a public figure, than about him as a person. Nasty couple.

My biggest issue with the whole series is the fact that the Chamberlain's are rich or at the least very wealthy, to the point that Adam's catches de air-plane in a heart beat to get to Africa. Everything seems so effort less, oh I want to got there, and I go. I know it's fiction, but it's still bothers me.

and last... but not least
The Unwritten, Vol. 1: Tommy Taylor and the Bogus Identity by Mike Carey

When I pick comic books the cover artwork is a turning point. I've been eyeing this comic for a while. The name is also so intriguing!!
I didn't read anything about it, so I didn't know what to expect.
It blew my mind completely!!
It not just about books, but also the possibility of a guy be a fictional character in the real world. I'm so looking forward to keep reading these comics.

Phew that was a long list of books! I hope I can read as much the next month. We'll see. ;)
Have a nice week and beginning of September.